*Recap*
"Chill Mikes, if she's really willing to put her life on the line like that she must be a very trust worthy and honest person. Besides I would never bite you Sarah," he says as he turns to me. "You’re too sweet for my taste and you're dating my bro so it’s just gross ‘cause you have all his germs and shit." He says screwing up his face at which I laugh because he looks like a little boy seeing his parents kissing. Soon he turns serious again. "BUT if you hurt him Sarah you better sleep with your eyes open ‘cause I will kill you, then I will snap your pathetic little neck like a fucking twig under my foot! Do you fucking understand me!" he tells me his face inches from mine as he bears his fangs.

"I understand Gerard and if I do hurt him please feel free to fucking torture me if you want, ‘cause I’d fucking kill myself if I ever hurt your brother." I tell him and then I walk over to Mikey, he holds out his hand and I take it.

"Ok so let me get this straight you two are going out?" Lyn-z says at which we both nod. "and my husband has gone insane," She says laughing. We nod and all laugh, even Gee but then he catches on, and tackles Lyn-z to the ground and starts tickling her.

"Hey babe lets go downstairs," he says. I nod, "but you have to let me give you a Mikey-back ride.” I look at him like he's crazy and crack up laughing. Then he looks at me

serious and turns around. "Just get on my back before I lock you in her with Gee and Lyn-z.” I climb on his back and he walks out of the room, down the hallway and descends the stairs. All while I'm holding onto him for dear life hoping I'm not hurting him and that he won’t drop me. Then he sits me on the sofa and sits on me I just wrap my arms around him and laugh.

"Aren’t you supposed to be doing this with me on your lap and you holding onto me?" I laugh. He looks at me, turns around and straddles me, then kisses me so sweetly yet with so much more passion than I have ever felt in a kiss. I hook my arms around his neck and play with his hair with my right hand. I lay my left hand on his cheek and kiss back nibbling on his lips. I can tell he likes that because he smiles into the kiss. I smile back, then he pecks my lips and pulls back with a smile on his face. He rests his forehead on mine and I kiss his nose making him chuckle.

"I didn't know you where a biter," he smirked. "But then again with your little fangs I shouldn't be surprised."

"Well I told you to stick around and you would find out if I’d bite you. I just did well a little anyway I didn't just want to bit your neck out of know where that woul-" I say but Mikey interrupts.

"Now I would not have minded that one bit Sarah." He says chuckling, then he gets off me and lays down on the sofa. Did I mention the thing is HUGE! He then beckons me to lay next to him.  I lay down and snuggle up to him. He wraps his arms around my waist protectively while I lay my head on his chest, above his heart.
*Recap end*

~~fast forward to meeting up with the guys~~

Mikey and I walk hand in hand down a hallway and into the dressing room. We enter right behind Gee and Lyn-z. I can tell the guys are looking at me. I can feel their eyes on me. I look at them and smile as Gee walks over to a chair and sits down. He then pulls Lyn-z onto his lap and smiles. Mikey leads me over to the love seat and we sit down. I look up and smile at the guys while I grip Mikey's hand tighter. He rubs little circles with his thumb on my hand, I hear his voice in my head

"Don't worry Sarah, just relax, your fine they'll love you honey" I look at him and giggle then shake my head a little.

"What's so funny you two?" a voice that I've heard before asks. I look up to come face with Frank.

"Holy shit!" I scream and jump while Frank just laughs. I hear Gee and Mikey join in on the laughing too.

"Mikey are you going to tell us who this girl is?" Bob asks looking at me and smiling; slowly Mikey stops laughing, he just smiles and looks at me.

"Yea I am this is my girlfriend Sarah." Mikey says. Bob smiles at me, introduces himself and gives me a hug.

Frank... well frank practically pounces on me and says.

"Welcome to the group sweetheart." Ray says his hello and gives me a hug. Then we all chatted for a while. Frank got me to play wii bowling, I won. I also beat Gerard’s high score and Let me tell you I’ve never played the wii before.  When we sat down again a tech girl came in.

"Mikey when is the last time you feed you don't look normal." Gerard stated

"I'm fine Gerard it's only beenfourweeks." Mikey said the last part so fast you couldn't understand it.

"So you’re saying that you last feed off human blood a month ago!" he growls looking at Mikey.

"Seriously Gee I’m not that bad and I'm not even hung-"

"Your not hungry Mikey? Then why would you have those bright red rings around your eyes? You told me they only become noticeable when you’re hungry." I told him sounding quite angry, he knows he should feed off human blood at LEAST every 3 weeks! I look and see the tech girls surprise I guess she either didn't no I knew their secret or they just slipped up themselves; however I'm thinking it’s the first choice.

"Topaz, do you have the blood that me and mikes usually drink?" Gee asks the tech girl. I notice the girl is biting her lip like she's trying to find words to say something without making them mad.

"um.. no I couldn't get it here... please don't be mad Gee and Mikey I really tried to find it." She says looking down ashamed of herself, Bob tells her to come and sit on his lap.

"Don’t worry about it we'll just get some after the concert at the house it's no biggie Topaz." Mikey says as Bob holds her protectively, almost like how a big brother would.

"Ok... is there anything else you need me to do?" she asks playing with the hole in her pants.

"No, not that I can think of... but we have someone we'd like. you to meet. It's Mikey's girlfriend, I'm sure you two will get along great." Gerard says and smiles at Topaz. She looks up at me then smiles.

"Wait did you say Sarah? I thought you looked familiar!" Topaz states staring at me.

"No way, you can't be Topaz from buzznet? Oh my god you are, my beautiful little vampire!" I yell and run to her. I hug and spin her around while she giggles and holds onto me.

"Yep it’s me love." she says smiling at me, while we look like total fools.

"I'm guessing that you two know each other," Bob states.

"Do we?! She's like one of my best fucking friends! She's been there for me through a lot of shit. We even made a pact, about 2 years ago, that if one of us ever gets turned by a vampire that we would turn the other. I mean I’d kill for her if someone were to hurt her!" I say giggling excitedly.

"Yeah we did say that and she's helped me whenever drinking got really bad. She was always there, she made me realize that I was a alcoholic and made me promise to get off of it. I failed quite a few times but she never gave up on me like so many of my friends did. She never left she was always there. I'd do anything for her she's the one true friend that I have.  I can tell all my secrets to her and be a total dork around. I can just be the dorky, grim and creepy Topaz I am, with her." She says smiling and holding onto me as if  world would end if she let go. "Plus she's got a huge cru-"

"Topaz finish that sentence and I will personally drain you of your blood!" I say staring at her, she just smiles evilly. I know she's going to say it anyway but before I could cover her mouth she says it out loud.

"She has a HUGE crush on me and she hasn't had her first girl kiss!" she yells and then starts running.

"Oh my god Topaz I am going to fucking KILL you!" I scream. "How could you tell them?" I yell and start to chase her.  I’m grabbed by Mikey as Topaz hides behind bob.

"What does she mean when she said you haven't had your first girl kiss?" Mikey asks looking at me, I look down embarrassed.

"It means she hasn't kissed a girl yet, dumb ass. Jeez slow aren't you?" Frank says rolling his eyes at Mikey.

"It means I'm Bi Mikey and I haven't kissed a girl yet, okay?" I say looking down feeling all of 3 inches tell with a voice to match. I can’t believe Topaz said that out loud, wait till bob’s not around, she's gonna get it!

"Shit you hadn't told him yet had you?" she asks, I just shake my head and sit on the couch "love I’m so fucking sorry I thought he knew! God damn it, I always fuck it up don’t

I?" she says, then sits next to me.

"No you didn't fuck up hun, I just hadn't told any of them yet. I mean me and Mikey just started dating and I was just introduced to the rest of the guys.  I didn't want to just come out to them out randomly." I say looking at her, avoiding Mikey gaze because I’m afraid of what he thinks. I mean I just neglected to tell him about my sexuality. I shouldn't be afraid of what he thinks because he already has a friend that's bi, but dating someone that's like that is totally different. He'll probably dump me now. Suddenly I felt the seat next to me move as someone sat down. The person I was dreading talking to.

"Sweetheart I'm not going to dump you over you being bi I’m friends with frank for god’s sake. That would be a little hypocritically." He says to me grabbing my hand. "Oh and

if you’re wondering how I knew that I can sort of listen into your thoughts. I don’t always do it I just saw that you were really sad and I had to know what was going on.  You wouldn't answer any of us so I listened in on your thoughts, sorry baby please don’t be mad."

"I’m not mad, I cant get mad at you no matter how hard I want to be. Just don’t invade my thoughts again.  Not unless it’s ABSOLUTELY necessary, like I’m hurt and you don’t know what’s happening or something like that, ok?" I tell him as I lean against him.

"Mikey do you feel ok you look paler than usual? Like WAY paler man," ray asks worriedly.

"Yeah you look unhealthily pale even for a vamp. Do you need to bite one of us?" Frank asks like it was the most normal question in the world. I take a look at Mikey and notice that he's almost as pale as he is when he's in costume makeup. I notice his hunger rings are a lot bigger, making him look like he's got purely red eyes. He notices me looking at him and smiles, kissing my hand.

"I feel fine guys really, so stop bugging me about me about feeding. I’m ok I promise." He says as I pull my hand out of his and look at him angrily.

"I need to talk to you in private right fucking now Michael!" I say as I rise and stand before him. He nods and leads me into a little side room right off of their dressing room.

"Ok what is it w-" he asks.

"Michael you are lying right through your fucking teeth when you say you are ok. You are about 10 shades whiter than you were 20 minutes ago and your hunger rings are so big that they make you look like you’ve red eyes. You need to feed Michael weather you want to admit it or not!” I Whisper at him angrily.

"Ok fine, yes I am very, fucking hungry are you happy now! I admit I want to fucking attack someone, but I’m not going too. I am so hungry but I can’t just feed on one of you. That’s just insane! I’m not doing that." he says in a scarily calm voice.

"You don’t have to feed from them, you can feed from me. It’s not like I’m not going to be doing much around here, just hanging side stage."

"Hell no, I’m defiantly not going to feed from you." He says sitting down on the tiny worn out black love seat and holding onto one of the arms. I sit next to him but he just tries to push me away, I don’t budge.

"I’m not leaving you Mikey I can tell you’re too weak to stand. Please babe, just drink a little, just enough to get you through the show. Then you can go home and get some from wherever it is you get it, ok sweetie." I say as I place my hand on his. "Your really worrying me Mikey please. Just drink a little, please, for me?" I ask holding his hand as he lifts his head looking at me. His eyes have turned from the beautiful chocolate brown eyes that I love, to these animalistic red eyes streaming tears down his face.

"Ok, I'll drink a little, just enough to get me through the concert. I'll tell you now, when I bite it will hurt like hell, but I’ll try not to hurt you more than I need to ok?" he asks

sadly. I just nod my head. He leans over, moves the hair off my shoulder and places his lips on my neck. "I’m so sorry Sarah," I hear in my head, but before I could respond he sinks his teeth into the flesh of my neck. I gasp and grab his shoulder as I feel the pain shoot through my body. Soon I start to feel him lean me back on the loveseat as he feeds on me hungrily. I slowly become dizzy and I know I need to stop him.

"Mikey babe stop, I’m starting to feel dizzy." I mumble weakly, whilst trying to push him off. All he does is hold on to me tighter and let out a animalistic growl. "Mikey I’m serious! You have to stop I’m starting to feel cold," I tell him. When he hears that he releases me and comes up breathing heavily. I look and see him lick my blood off his lips. He then bites his thumb and dabs his blood on the spot where he bit me. I feel the wound close. I try to rise but he pushes me back down. I notice his eyes are back to normal and he’s starting to get his color back and smile.

"You just lay right there I’m going to get you something to help you feel better, ok sweetheart?" He says, I nod my head and he goes off somewhere. He returns with something to eat and drink. He sits me up and places himself behind me so that I’m leaning against him. I eat and drink eagerly with some help from Mikey. "Gerard said this should help

you get your strength back. Is it helping at all?" he asks concerned.

"It's helping a lot Mikey thank you. I see that you are feeling better, you defiantly look a hell of a lot better" I say chuckling.

"Yes I am thanks to you.... HEY, what are you trying to say I looked ugly or something?" he says chuckling himself.

"No you were just too pale for your own good that's all sweetie." I say smiling and hugging him. We then walk hand in hand back to the room where everyone else is and they all smile at me.

"So how are you feeling Sarah did the food help?" Bob asks. I nod in answer to his question and he smiles as I look around for topaz.

"Hey where'd topaz go?" I ask curiously.

"She found out what was going on and ran to that bathroom crying, Frankie’s in with her now." Gee says sadly, I let go of Mikey’s hand and walk towards the bathroom. All of a sudden Frank walks trough the door and motions for me to go in. I walk in and hear sniffling; I look down at the floor and see topaz sitting on the floor with her legs pulled to her chest, her head on her knees and her hair covering most of her face. I close the door and sit down next to her.

"Topaz sweetheart come here." She looks up, her makeup has run. She moves into my outstretched arms and I pull her into me. I hug her tightly and kiss the top of her head, as I pull her into my lap and rock her back and forth. "Shh sweetie it’s ok I’m fine see, I’m still alive and still human too." She giggles quietly.  we then got up and went back outside where we sat and talked to everyone for a while.

~time elapse~

 About 2 hours and a box of cookies a fan made later Lyn-z comes over to me and tells me that we need to leave so the boys can get all dressed up and also for me and her to go to floor so we could watch them perform. I got up and said my goodbye to the guys and gave Mikey a kiss and wished them all luck before leaving the guys and topaz behind to get everything sat up. Lyn-z and I headed out to the floor, but not without a stop at the makeup room first i tried to fix her up to where she shouldn't be recognized, well hopefully; she was dressed in a pair of old blue jeans with a black shirt and a chunky red necklace, i had curled her hair a lil bit and she wore just black eyeliner and smokey grey eyeshadow and just clear gloss instead of her signature red lipstick. We then headed to the floor, thankfully we made it before the doors opened. Soon enough they opened the doors and the kids came in you could tell everyone of them we're super excited to see the guys. Lyn-z and I stood there waiting excitedly just like the others waiting to see My Chemical Romance and our men.  Soon they came onstage and let me tell you i was blown away by their performances, i mean i knew they were awesome but its so much better upfront and live. Soon it was time for their wardrobe change and for The Black Parade to perform meanwhile me and lyn-z chatted to a couple of the girls close to us they were all pretty cool and know one recognized Lyn-z.. wait i mean "Elizabeth" that was the name i gave her. Finally the lights dimmed and the guys were back performing me and Mikey kept catching glimpses of each other and each time he would smile as i would return it and smile. Me and lyn-z did our lil sign that we had actually talked about to the guys on the way here, it was the decadence sign we agreed that when I don't love you came on we would do the sign and they would laugh and do it. however they never thought we would follow through. Finally I Don't Love You came on and me and Lyn-z through our hands up make the Decaydence symbol we both stood out like a sore thumb but a couple of girls did the sign too.. thats when Mikey noticed it and he laughed and showed Gerard and he of course joked about it but finally after Mikey showing him how to do it they both threw it back and i yelled "decadence taking over!" which earned some evil glares towards me and a laugh from Mikey before looking straight at me and saying "Hell yeah Decaydence taking over honey!". soon enough they were playing again me and lyn-z watched them but noticed that they were both getting paler and sort of weaker looking before i could ask frank who was nearby if they were ok, Mikey collapses Gerard immediately goes to his side before falling unconscious also. By this time I'm screaming for them to let me and lyn-z up on stage finally ray jumps down and helps us out so we can get up there to them. bob is at the side of the stage holding his hand out for me to take, i take his hand and he pulls me up i rush over to Mikey while bob pulls Lyn-z  and ray back up. I get to Mikey and gee to find worm, topaz and Frankie by their sides soon  enough bob, ray, and lyn-z join us also.

"What the fuck happened?!" i ask angerly to know one imparticular.

"I don't know! They were both fine then they just hit the fucking floor!" Frank practically screams.

"Mikey sweetheart wakeup please, Mikey please! Baby your scaring me, wake up!" I say to him crying and shaking him a little I look over to gee "Gerard come on you have to wake up your fucking brother needs you. I need to know what the hell is wrong with you both." i yell at him hoping to good that once he hears that is brother needed him it would make him wakeup for a bit, thank god it worked.

"I don't know what's wrong" Gerard says weakly "it's almost we ate like something we're not allowed to eat." Gerard spoke weakly. That part got me the only thing they ate was some fruits and things like that...wait! the cookies the funky tasting cookies!

"Gerard did you and Mikey eat the cookies the supposed fan make for you guys?" he shook his head yes. "ok when you eat something you two aren't allowed what do you have to

do to get your strength back?"

"blood." Gerard stated. ok simple enough just get some animal blood and we're good.

"ok I'll go to your house and get your drink gee" Ray says and starts to get up but then is halted by Gerard grabbing his hand.

"No Ray we need human, more specifically we need the blood of our beloveds" he spoke while looking at me and Lyn-z.

"Man you guys cant just drink from them especially if your onstage you'll be found out!" Bob shouts in a low whisper while he does that i get up and grab Frank's mic.

"Sarah what are you doing with the mic?" Lyn-z asks.

"look do any of you have a knife on you?" they look at me weirdly then shake their heads no "well thats where this thing comes in." I stated taping the side of the mic.

"what are you going t-" frank asks but is cut off my me.

"okay everybody I need you all to listen." i say into the mic and no one shuts up... "look EVERYBODY shut the fuck up right god damned NOW!" i scream into the mic and everyone shuts up "ok now what i need is to know if anyone has a fucking knife on them we.. well i need it now!" everyone looks around but i spot a girl holding something. "look if anyone has one i promise to you that you will not get in trouble i just REALLY need it. Mikey and Gerard's lives depend on it!" when i say this the girl moves forward, i motion for them to let her through.

"i have one you can have" the girl yells over the other fans that are panicking. i tell the guards to let her up bob goes over and pulls her up on the stage. she comes and hands me the knife bob picks up Mikey and ray and frank help Gerard wal-more like stagger back into their dressing room. Once we get backstage i tell Bob to take Mikey to the side room me and him were in before and stay with him and talk to him till i come in with that he's off to the room. Then i turn and tell Frank and Ray to help Gee to the couch and for them to take and keep him awake. I turn to my left to see Lyn-z in tears, Topaz almost in tears, and the fan all standing there i told topaz to take the girl to go and get some rubbing alcohol then once they got back i told them to go back outside and stay with worm. When they left i turned and locked the door, i then went to Lyn-z and explained to her that she'll have to let Gerard drink from her if she doesn't want him to die, she understood we both went over to him where the frank and bob was talking to him to keep him concouis. before i do anything i take and open the pocketknife and take the rubbing alcohol and go to a trash can and poor some of it over the blade so its sanitized in case we needed to cut ourselves so Mikey and gee could drink.

"ok gee you know what you need to do." i say looking at him however he looked at me scared

"i cant bite her Sarah i love her and i cant do that even if i have to" Gerard tells me, now i know where Mikey got that from.

"look i know you don't WANT to but if you don't she'll lose you and your brother will lose you." i said to him and it still didn't get to him.. he's not budging. then i hear a smack i look to see a red hand print of Gerard's left cheek and a totally shocked frank and ray. i look to see who had slapped him and it was lyn-z she looked hurt like she didn't want to do it but maybe its her way of getting him mad so he wouldn't feel bad in doing that.

"look will you just fucking bite me already and get it over with you stupid fuck." she said looking at him i noticed that it looked like gee was getting mad.. its working "i swear all you do is fucking whine whine whine you don't do shit Gerard you don't have the god damn guts to do it! your not man enough to fucking bite me i no if Mikey was in your place he'd be fucking man enough to fucking bite Sarah but no your older and your not even as brave as that fucking brother of yours" she starts to say more but is cut off by Gerard lunging on her and bitting her when i look at him i see his eyes are blood red, i tell the guys only to let him feed from her for a minute longer and when they get him off her have him seal her wound and then come tell me. I walk into the next room to be met with a worried bob i tell him what happened and he sort of freaks but soon calms down we hear a lil bit of  yelling then frank came in and told me they got him off lynz and he's healing the wound now then left me, Mikey and bob. when he said that i knew it was ok for me to work on getting Mikey better now.

"ok now bob I'm going to have to cut myself so he can drink and when or if he gets to hungry and i cant get him off me i need you to get him off ok?" i say looking at him and explaining everything to him hoping he'd go along with it

"ok yeah i can do that but where are you going to cut you cant cut your wrist or on your neck you'd bleed out to fast." he says knowingly i nod and think about it for a minute then i take off my top shirt to revel my MCR black beater it had no sleeves so i could cut  and he could feed from there. i tell him what I'm planning to do he thought it would be better if we could do something else but i told him we cant when i said that i sat down in behind Mikey so i can feed him better. I take the knife and cut on my arm about mid-way up just below my elbow. I take and hand the knife to bob then i take and open Mikey's mouth and let my blood slip into his mouth, hoping that he will latch on to my arm and drink some.

"Come on Mikey babe you have to drink, please babe you have to do this drink for me please baby" as i spoke that i felt him start to suck and drink from me, he soon wraps his hands around my wrist and arm. I smile thankfully that he didn't die and that he's drinking, i run my fingers through his hair lovingly, I start to feel me get weak. "Mikey babe you have to stop now I'm getting weak" he growls and holds onto me tighter thats when i look up and bob "bob help me." thats all i say before i feel him having to practically rip Mikey off of me once he got him calmed down Mikey comes over to me where I'm sitting with my hand on my arm. He bites his finger like he did earlier and then takes and runs it over my wound and i literally see it close up before my eyes. As soon as its healed i launch myself into his arms hugging him he wraps his arms around me and holds me tightly almost like he's afraid to let me go.

"I'm sorry i didn't let go Sarah" he say looking in my eyes and running his hands through my hair lovingly

"Dude i fucking had to pry you off of her man!" bob say "why the hell didn't you let go when she said to" he asks angrily

"its not like i meant to do that it was me needing blood ok i couldn't control it. you should know that by now Bob" Mikey say i just lay my head on his chest and rub his sides to keep him calm i don't no why but calms him down i just that feeling to do that to keep him calm, before they could argue any more i told bob that he should go tell the guys that we're both ok and that he's back to normal. i just kept my head over his heart so i could hear it beating yes he's a vampire but it still beats.

"I'm glad you ok Mikes you scared me shitless." i say he just smiles and kisses my forehead then ask where his bro is i tell him everything that happened and where gee is I'm so glad that they're both ok but who the hell would put something in the cookies they were giving them to make them sick that's whats getting me "Babe did you piss off anyone that would have known your secret and might have thought of doing that to you all?" he shakes his head no we both lay there and slowly fall asleep.

To Be Contunied...

well lately i've had the worst week ever

my grandpa and my cousin were in the hospital

on monday they called everyone saying that he was critical and that the family need to come and see him

well today i got news that he passed away in his sleep

he died at 9AM

according to his mom he rasied up and told his brother and sis to get off the drugs and take care of mom

He died of Cystic-Fibrous the nurses were giving him enough pain killer to take down a 300lb man but it wasn't phasing him

all his nurses were there yesterday they were like his hospital family his "girlfiend" which was just a nurse that played around with him she would always climb in bed with him and that's what she did when he was sleeping for a while

I just dont no what to do we cant tell papaw cause he's not in his right state of mind right now

i need help

oh and he's some pics of pics that i have of kyle when he was younger and could move around

 him stackin veggie cans in the cabnet
 that's my fave he loved the simpsons at school near halloween time

Sarah

yes im talking about Jon Walker

its his 23rd b-day so happy birthday man where ever you are!

its also my 1 yr Buzznet anniversy, yep its been a year on here one very wild, crazy but great year.

i honestly wouldn't trade it for the world, this place has kept me sane so many times and in touch with so many people

i know if i haven't came on this site i would have never met the wonderful people i know today.

so to all of those friends that i have made im glade i've found you on here

love you all

Sarah

my pretty 23rd birthday cake...

i had a pretty good day i got to be 19 again haha

we didn't have a 2 and 3 just a 1 and 9 so i had to be 19

but i aint complianing

oh and here is a few pics of me and my lil sissy josie.. she's the only one out of my sibs that came

Sarah