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Chapter 4: Meeting the guys and the bite

*Recap*
"Chill Mikes, if she's really willing to put her life on the line like that she must be a very trust worthy and honest person. Besides I would never bite you Sarah," he says as he turns to me. "You’re too sweet for my taste and you're dating my bro so it’s just gross ‘cause you have all his germs and shit." He says screwing up his face at which I laugh because he looks like a little boy seeing his parents kissing. Soon he turns serious again. "BUT if you hurt him Sarah you better sleep with your eyes open ‘cause I will kill you, then I will snap your pathetic little neck like a fucking twig under my foot! Do you fucking understand me!" he tells me his face inches from mine as he bears his fangs.

"I understand Gerard and if I do hurt him please feel free to fucking torture me if you want, ‘cause I’d fucking kill myself if I ever hurt your brother." I tell him and then I walk over to Mikey, he holds out his hand and I take it.

"Ok so let me get this straight you two are going out?" Lyn-z says at which we both nod. "and my husband has gone insane," She says laughing. We nod and all laugh, even Gee but then he catches on, and tackles Lyn-z to the ground and starts tickling her.

"Hey babe lets go downstairs," he says. I nod, "but you have to let me give you a Mikey-back ride.” I look at him like he's crazy and crack up laughing. Then he looks at me

serious and turns around. "Just get on my back before I lock you in her with Gee and Lyn-z.” I climb on his back and he walks out of the room, down the hallway and descends the stairs. All while I'm holding onto him for dear life hoping I'm not hurting him and that he won’t drop me. Then he sits me on the sofa and sits on me I just wrap my arms around him and laugh.

"Aren’t you supposed to be doing this with me on your lap and you holding onto me?" I laugh. He looks at me, turns around and straddles me, then kisses me so sweetly yet with so much more passion than I have ever felt in a kiss. I hook my arms around his neck and play with his hair with my right hand. I lay my left hand on his cheek and kiss back nibbling on his lips. I can tell he likes that because he smiles into the kiss. I smile back, then he pecks my lips and pulls back with a smile on his face. He rests his forehead on mine and I kiss his nose making him chuckle.

"I didn't know you where a biter," he smirked. "But then again with your little fangs I shouldn't be surprised."

"Well I told you to stick around and you would find out if I’d bite you. I just did well a little anyway I didn't just want to bit your neck out of know where that woul-" I say but Mikey interrupts.

"Now I would not have minded that one bit Sarah." He says chuckling, then he gets off me and lays down on the sofa. Did I mention the thing is HUGE! He then beckons me to lay next to him.  I lay down and snuggle up to him. He wraps his arms around my waist protectively while I lay my head on his chest, above his heart.
*Recap end*

~~fast forward to meeting up with the guys~~

Mikey and I walk hand in hand down a hallway and into the dressing room. We enter right behind Gee and Lyn-z. I can tell the guys are looking at me. I can feel their eyes on me. I look at them and smile as Gee walks over to a chair and sits down. He then pulls Lyn-z onto his lap and smiles. Mikey leads me over to the love seat and we sit down. I look up and smile at the guys while I grip Mikey's hand tighter. He rubs little circles with his thumb on my hand, I hear his voice in my head

"Don't worry Sarah, just relax, your fine they'll love you honey" I look at him and giggle then shake my head a little.

"What's so funny you two?" a voice that I've heard before asks. I look up to come face with Frank.

"Holy shit!" I scream and jump while Frank just laughs. I hear Gee and Mikey join in on the laughing too.

"Mikey are you going to tell us who this girl is?" Bob asks looking at me and smiling; slowly Mikey stops laughing, he just smiles and looks at me.

"Yea I am this is my girlfriend Sarah." Mikey says. Bob smiles at me, introduces himself and gives me a hug.

Frank... well frank practically pounces on me and says.

"Welcome to the group sweetheart." Ray says his hello and gives me a hug. Then we all chatted for a while. Frank got me to play wii bowling, I won. I also beat Gerard’s high score and Let me tell you I’ve never played the wii before.  When we sat down again a tech girl came in.

"Mikey when is the last time you feed you don't look normal." Gerard stated

"I'm fine Gerard it's only beenfourweeks." Mikey said the last part so fast you couldn't understand it.

"So you’re saying that you last feed off human blood a month ago!" he growls looking at Mikey.

"Seriously Gee I’m not that bad and I'm not even hung-"

"Your not hungry Mikey? Then why would you have those bright red rings around your eyes? You told me they only become noticeable when you’re hungry." I told him sounding quite angry, he knows he should feed off human blood at LEAST every 3 weeks! I look and see the tech girls surprise I guess she either didn't no I knew their secret or they just slipped up themselves; however I'm thinking it’s the first choice.

"Topaz, do you have the blood that me and mikes usually drink?" Gee asks the tech girl. I notice the girl is biting her lip like she's trying to find words to say something without making them mad.

"um.. no I couldn't get it here... please don't be mad Gee and Mikey I really tried to find it." She says looking down ashamed of herself, Bob tells her to come and sit on his lap.

"Don’t worry about it we'll just get some after the concert at the house it's no biggie Topaz." Mikey says as Bob holds her protectively, almost like how a big brother would.

"Ok... is there anything else you need me to do?" she asks playing with the hole in her pants.

"No, not that I can think of... but we have someone we'd like. you to meet. It's Mikey's girlfriend, I'm sure you two will get along great." Gerard says and smiles at Topaz. She looks up at me then smiles.

"Wait did you say Sarah? I thought you looked familiar!" Topaz states staring at me.

"No way, you can't be Topaz from buzznet? Oh my god you are, my beautiful little vampire!" I yell and run to her. I hug and spin her around while she giggles and holds onto me.

"Yep it’s me love." she says smiling at me, while we look like total fools.

"I'm guessing that you two know each other," Bob states.

"Do we?! She's like one of my best fucking friends! She's been there for me through a lot of shit. We even made a pact, about 2 years ago, that if one of us ever gets turned by a vampire that we would turn the other. I mean I’d kill for her if someone were to hurt her!" I say giggling excitedly.

"Yeah we did say that and she's helped me whenever drinking got really bad. She was always there, she made me realize that I was a alcoholic and made me promise to get off of it. I failed quite a few times but she never gave up on me like so many of my friends did. She never left she was always there. I'd do anything for her she's the one true friend that I have.  I can tell all my secrets to her and be a total dork around. I can just be the dorky, grim and creepy Topaz I am, with her." She says smiling and holding onto me as if  world would end if she let go. "Plus she's got a huge cru-"

"Topaz finish that sentence and I will personally drain you of your blood!" I say staring at her, she just smiles evilly. I know she's going to say it anyway but before I could cover her mouth she says it out loud.

"She has a HUGE crush on me and she hasn't had her first girl kiss!" she yells and then starts running.

"Oh my god Topaz I am going to fucking KILL you!" I scream. "How could you tell them?" I yell and start to chase her.  I’m grabbed by Mikey as Topaz hides behind bob.

"What does she mean when she said you haven't had your first girl kiss?" Mikey asks looking at me, I look down embarrassed.

"It means she hasn't kissed a girl yet, dumb ass. Jeez slow aren't you?" Frank says rolling his eyes at Mikey.

"It means I'm Bi Mikey and I haven't kissed a girl yet, okay?" I say looking down feeling all of 3 inches tell with a voice to match. I can’t believe Topaz said that out loud, wait till bob’s not around, she's gonna get it!

"Shit you hadn't told him yet had you?" she asks, I just shake my head and sit on the couch "love I’m so fucking sorry I thought he knew! God damn it, I always fuck it up don’t

I?" she says, then sits next to me.

"No you didn't fuck up hun, I just hadn't told any of them yet. I mean me and Mikey just started dating and I was just introduced to the rest of the guys.  I didn't want to just come out to them out randomly." I say looking at her, avoiding Mikey gaze because I’m afraid of what he thinks. I mean I just neglected to tell him about my sexuality. I shouldn't be afraid of what he thinks because he already has a friend that's bi, but dating someone that's like that is totally different. He'll probably dump me now. Suddenly I felt the seat next to me move as someone sat down. The person I was dreading talking to.

"Sweetheart I'm not going to dump you over you being bi I’m friends with frank for god’s sake. That would be a little hypocritically." He says to me grabbing my hand. "Oh and

if you’re wondering how I knew that I can sort of listen into your thoughts. I don’t always do it I just saw that you were really sad and I had to know what was going on.  You wouldn't answer any of us so I listened in on your thoughts, sorry baby please don’t be mad."

"I’m not mad, I cant get mad at you no matter how hard I want to be. Just don’t invade my thoughts again.  Not unless it’s ABSOLUTELY necessary, like I’m hurt and you don’t know what’s happening or something like that, ok?" I tell him as I lean against him.

"Mikey do you feel ok you look paler than usual? Like WAY paler man," ray asks worriedly.

"Yeah you look unhealthily pale even for a vamp. Do you need to bite one of us?" Frank asks like it was the most normal question in the world. I take a look at Mikey and notice that he's almost as pale as he is when he's in costume makeup. I notice his hunger rings are a lot bigger, making him look like he's got purely red eyes. He notices me looking at him and smiles, kissing my hand.

"I feel fine guys really, so stop bugging me about me about feeding. I’m ok I promise." He says as I pull my hand out of his and look at him angrily.

"I need to talk to you in private right fucking now Michael!" I say as I rise and stand before him. He nods and leads me into a little side room right off of their dressing room.

"Ok what is it w-" he asks.

"Michael you are lying right through your fucking teeth when you say you are ok. You are about 10 shades whiter than you were 20 minutes ago and your hunger rings are so big that they make you look like you’ve red eyes. You need to feed Michael weather you want to admit it or not!” I Whisper at him angrily.

"Ok fine, yes I am very, fucking hungry are you happy now! I admit I want to fucking attack someone, but I’m not going too. I am so hungry but I can’t just feed on one of you. That’s just insane! I’m not doing that." he says in a scarily calm voice.

"You don’t have to feed from them, you can feed from me. It’s not like I’m not going to be doing much around here, just hanging side stage."

"Hell no, I’m defiantly not going to feed from you." He says sitting down on the tiny worn out black love seat and holding onto one of the arms. I sit next to him but he just tries to push me away, I don’t budge.

"I’m not leaving you Mikey I can tell you’re too weak to stand. Please babe, just drink a little, just enough to get you through the show. Then you can go home and get some from wherever it is you get it, ok sweetie." I say as I place my hand on his. "Your really worrying me Mikey please. Just drink a little, please, for me?" I ask holding his hand as he lifts his head looking at me. His eyes have turned from the beautiful chocolate brown eyes that I love, to these animalistic red eyes streaming tears down his face.

"Ok, I'll drink a little, just enough to get me through the concert. I'll tell you now, when I bite it will hurt like hell, but I’ll try not to hurt you more than I need to ok?" he asks

sadly. I just nod my head. He leans over, moves the hair off my shoulder and places his lips on my neck. "I’m so sorry Sarah," I hear in my head, but before I could respond he sinks his teeth into the flesh of my neck. I gasp and grab his shoulder as I feel the pain shoot through my body. Soon I start to feel him lean me back on the loveseat as he feeds on me hungrily. I slowly become dizzy and I know I need to stop him.

"Mikey babe stop, I’m starting to feel dizzy." I mumble weakly, whilst trying to push him off. All he does is hold on to me tighter and let out a animalistic growl. "Mikey I’m serious! You have to stop I’m starting to feel cold," I tell him. When he hears that he releases me and comes up breathing heavily. I look and see him lick my blood off his lips. He then bites his thumb and dabs his blood on the spot where he bit me. I feel the wound close. I try to rise but he pushes me back down. I notice his eyes are back to normal and he’s starting to get his color back and smile.

"You just lay right there I’m going to get you something to help you feel better, ok sweetheart?" He says, I nod my head and he goes off somewhere. He returns with something to eat and drink. He sits me up and places himself behind me so that I’m leaning against him. I eat and drink eagerly with some help from Mikey. "Gerard said this should help

you get your strength back. Is it helping at all?" he asks concerned.

"It's helping a lot Mikey thank you. I see that you are feeling better, you defiantly look a hell of a lot better" I say chuckling.

"Yes I am thanks to you.... HEY, what are you trying to say I looked ugly or something?" he says chuckling himself.

"No you were just too pale for your own good that's all sweetie." I say smiling and hugging him. We then walk hand in hand back to the room where everyone else is and they all smile at me.

"So how are you feeling Sarah did the food help?" Bob asks. I nod in answer to his question and he smiles as I look around for topaz.

"Hey where'd topaz go?" I ask curiously.

"She found out what was going on and ran to that bathroom crying, Frankie’s in with her now." Gee says sadly, I let go of Mikey’s hand and walk towards the bathroom. All of a sudden Frank walks trough the door and motions for me to go in. I walk in and hear sniffling; I look down at the floor and see topaz sitting on the floor with her legs pulled to her chest, her head on her knees and her hair covering most of her face. I close the door and sit down next to her.

"Topaz sweetheart come here." She looks up, her makeup has run. She moves into my outstretched arms and I pull her into me. I hug her tightly and kiss the top of her head, as I pull her into my lap and rock her back and forth. "Shh sweetie it’s ok I’m fine see, I’m still alive and still human too." She giggles quietly.  we then got up and went back outside where we sat and talked to everyone for a while.

~time elapse~

 About 2 hours and a box of cookies a fan made later Lyn-z comes over to me and tells me that we need to leave so the boys can get all dressed up and also for me and her to go to floor so we could watch them perform. I got up and said my goodbye to the guys and gave Mikey a kiss and wished them all luck before leaving the guys and topaz behind to get everything sat up. Lyn-z and I headed out to the floor, but not without a stop at the makeup room first i tried to fix her up to where she shouldn't be recognized, well hopefully; she was dressed in a pair of old blue jeans with a black shirt and a chunky red necklace, i had curled her hair a lil bit and she wore just black eyeliner and smokey grey eyeshadow and just clear gloss instead of her signature red lipstick. We then headed to the floor, thankfully we made it before the doors opened. Soon enough they opened the doors and the kids came in you could tell everyone of them we're super excited to see the guys. Lyn-z and I stood there waiting excitedly just like the others waiting to see My Chemical Romance and our men.  Soon they came onstage and let me tell you i was blown away by their performances, i mean i knew they were awesome but its so much better upfront and live. Soon it was time for their wardrobe change and for The Black Parade to perform meanwhile me and lyn-z chatted to a couple of the girls close to us they were all pretty cool and know one recognized Lyn-z.. wait i mean "Elizabeth" that was the name i gave her. Finally the lights dimmed and the guys were back performing me and Mikey kept catching glimpses of each other and each time he would smile as i would return it and smile. Me and lyn-z did our lil sign that we had actually talked about to the guys on the way here, it was the decadence sign we agreed that when I don't love you came on we would do the sign and they would laugh and do it. however they never thought we would follow through. Finally I Don't Love You came on and me and Lyn-z through our hands up make the Decaydence symbol we both stood out like a sore thumb but a couple of girls did the sign too.. thats when Mikey noticed it and he laughed and showed Gerard and he of course joked about it but finally after Mikey showing him how to do it they both threw it back and i yelled "decadence taking over!" which earned some evil glares towards me and a laugh from Mikey before looking straight at me and saying "Hell yeah Decaydence taking over honey!". soon enough they were playing again me and lyn-z watched them but noticed that they were both getting paler and sort of weaker looking before i could ask frank who was nearby if they were ok, Mikey collapses Gerard immediately goes to his side before falling unconscious also. By this time I'm screaming for them to let me and lyn-z up on stage finally ray jumps down and helps us out so we can get up there to them. bob is at the side of the stage holding his hand out for me to take, i take his hand and he pulls me up i rush over to Mikey while bob pulls Lyn-z  and ray back up. I get to Mikey and gee to find worm, topaz and Frankie by their sides soon  enough bob, ray, and lyn-z join us also.

"What the fuck happened?!" i ask angerly to know one imparticular.

"I don't know! They were both fine then they just hit the fucking floor!" Frank practically screams.

"Mikey sweetheart wakeup please, Mikey please! Baby your scaring me, wake up!" I say to him crying and shaking him a little I look over to gee "Gerard come on you have to wake up your fucking brother needs you. I need to know what the hell is wrong with you both." i yell at him hoping to good that once he hears that is brother needed him it would make him wakeup for a bit, thank god it worked.

"I don't know what's wrong" Gerard says weakly "it's almost we ate like something we're not allowed to eat." Gerard spoke weakly. That part got me the only thing they ate was some fruits and things like that...wait! the cookies the funky tasting cookies!

"Gerard did you and Mikey eat the cookies the supposed fan make for you guys?" he shook his head yes. "ok when you eat something you two aren't allowed what do you have to

do to get your strength back?"

"blood." Gerard stated. ok simple enough just get some animal blood and we're good.

"ok I'll go to your house and get your drink gee" Ray says and starts to get up but then is halted by Gerard grabbing his hand.

"No Ray we need human, more specifically we need the blood of our beloveds" he spoke while looking at me and Lyn-z.

"Man you guys cant just drink from them especially if your onstage you'll be found out!" Bob shouts in a low whisper while he does that i get up and grab Frank's mic.

"Sarah what are you doing with the mic?" Lyn-z asks.

"look do any of you have a knife on you?" they look at me weirdly then shake their heads no "well thats where this thing comes in." I stated taping the side of the mic.

"what are you going t-" frank asks but is cut off my me.

"okay everybody I need you all to listen." i say into the mic and no one shuts up... "look EVERYBODY shut the fuck up right god damned NOW!" i scream into the mic and everyone shuts up "ok now what i need is to know if anyone has a fucking knife on them we.. well i need it now!" everyone looks around but i spot a girl holding something. "look if anyone has one i promise to you that you will not get in trouble i just REALLY need it. Mikey and Gerard's lives depend on it!" when i say this the girl moves forward, i motion for them to let her through.

"i have one you can have" the girl yells over the other fans that are panicking. i tell the guards to let her up bob goes over and pulls her up on the stage. she comes and hands me the knife bob picks up Mikey and ray and frank help Gerard wal-more like stagger back into their dressing room. Once we get backstage i tell Bob to take Mikey to the side room me and him were in before and stay with him and talk to him till i come in with that he's off to the room. Then i turn and tell Frank and Ray to help Gee to the couch and for them to take and keep him awake. I turn to my left to see Lyn-z in tears, Topaz almost in tears, and the fan all standing there i told topaz to take the girl to go and get some rubbing alcohol then once they got back i told them to go back outside and stay with worm. When they left i turned and locked the door, i then went to Lyn-z and explained to her that she'll have to let Gerard drink from her if she doesn't want him to die, she understood we both went over to him where the frank and bob was talking to him to keep him concouis. before i do anything i take and open the pocketknife and take the rubbing alcohol and go to a trash can and poor some of it over the blade so its sanitized in case we needed to cut ourselves so Mikey and gee could drink.

"ok gee you know what you need to do." i say looking at him however he looked at me scared

"i cant bite her Sarah i love her and i cant do that even if i have to" Gerard tells me, now i know where Mikey got that from.

"look i know you don't WANT to but if you don't she'll lose you and your brother will lose you." i said to him and it still didn't get to him.. he's not budging. then i hear a smack i look to see a red hand print of Gerard's left cheek and a totally shocked frank and ray. i look to see who had slapped him and it was lyn-z she looked hurt like she didn't want to do it but maybe its her way of getting him mad so he wouldn't feel bad in doing that.

"look will you just fucking bite me already and get it over with you stupid fuck." she said looking at him i noticed that it looked like gee was getting mad.. its working "i swear all you do is fucking whine whine whine you don't do shit Gerard you don't have the god damn guts to do it! your not man enough to fucking bite me i no if Mikey was in your place he'd be fucking man enough to fucking bite Sarah but no your older and your not even as brave as that fucking brother of yours" she starts to say more but is cut off by Gerard lunging on her and bitting her when i look at him i see his eyes are blood red, i tell the guys only to let him feed from her for a minute longer and when they get him off her have him seal her wound and then come tell me. I walk into the next room to be met with a worried bob i tell him what happened and he sort of freaks but soon calms down we hear a lil bit of  yelling then frank came in and told me they got him off lynz and he's healing the wound now then left me, Mikey and bob. when he said that i knew it was ok for me to work on getting Mikey better now.

"ok now bob I'm going to have to cut myself so he can drink and when or if he gets to hungry and i cant get him off me i need you to get him off ok?" i say looking at him and explaining everything to him hoping he'd go along with it

"ok yeah i can do that but where are you going to cut you cant cut your wrist or on your neck you'd bleed out to fast." he says knowingly i nod and think about it for a minute then i take off my top shirt to revel my MCR black beater it had no sleeves so i could cut  and he could feed from there. i tell him what I'm planning to do he thought it would be better if we could do something else but i told him we cant when i said that i sat down in behind Mikey so i can feed him better. I take the knife and cut on my arm about mid-way up just below my elbow. I take and hand the knife to bob then i take and open Mikey's mouth and let my blood slip into his mouth, hoping that he will latch on to my arm and drink some.

"Come on Mikey babe you have to drink, please babe you have to do this drink for me please baby" as i spoke that i felt him start to suck and drink from me, he soon wraps his hands around my wrist and arm. I smile thankfully that he didn't die and that he's drinking, i run my fingers through his hair lovingly, I start to feel me get weak. "Mikey babe you have to stop now I'm getting weak" he growls and holds onto me tighter thats when i look up and bob "bob help me." thats all i say before i feel him having to practically rip Mikey off of me once he got him calmed down Mikey comes over to me where I'm sitting with my hand on my arm. He bites his finger like he did earlier and then takes and runs it over my wound and i literally see it close up before my eyes. As soon as its healed i launch myself into his arms hugging him he wraps his arms around me and holds me tightly almost like he's afraid to let me go.

"I'm sorry i didn't let go Sarah" he say looking in my eyes and running his hands through my hair lovingly

"Dude i fucking had to pry you off of her man!" bob say "why the hell didn't you let go when she said to" he asks angrily

"its not like i meant to do that it was me needing blood ok i couldn't control it. you should know that by now Bob" Mikey say i just lay my head on his chest and rub his sides to keep him calm i don't no why but calms him down i just that feeling to do that to keep him calm, before they could argue any more i told bob that he should go tell the guys that we're both ok and that he's back to normal. i just kept my head over his heart so i could hear it beating yes he's a vampire but it still beats.

"I'm glad you ok Mikes you scared me shitless." i say he just smiles and kisses my forehead then ask where his bro is i tell him everything that happened and where gee is I'm so glad that they're both ok but who the hell would put something in the cookies they were giving them to make them sick that's whats getting me "Babe did you piss off anyone that would have known your secret and might have thought of doing that to you all?" he shakes his head no we both lay there and slowly fall asleep.

To Be Contunied...

i honestly dont know what to do.. I've lost my cousin kyle on the 17th i just found out that my papaw will probly never come out of the hospital and is DEFINTLY not going to be my "grandpaw" again my aunt through out her only daughter and her kids.. plus she's tryin to get custody of them on top of that my mom has threatened me and my mamaw i dont now what to do.. i dont no what to feel everything is just so fucking overwhelming im sitting here crying as i type this i feel so fuckin low right now i just want to be with my cousin kyle i miss him so much Sarah

hey guys um...

well lately i've had the worst week ever

my grandpa and my cousin were in the hospital

on monday they called everyone saying that he was critical and that the family need to come and see him

well today i got news that he passed away in his sleep

he died at 9AM

according to his mom he rasied up and told his brother and sis to get off the drugs and take care of mom

He died of Cystic-Fibrous the nurses were giving him enough pain killer to take down a 300lb man but it wasn't phasing him

all his nurses were there yesterday they were like his hospital family his "girlfiend" which was just a nurse that played around with him she would always climb in bed with him and that's what she did when he was sleeping for a while

I just dont no what to do we cant tell papaw cause he's not in his right state of mind right now

i need help

oh and he's some pics of pics that i have of kyle when he was younger and could move around

 him stackin veggie cans in the cabnet
 that's my fave he loved the simpsons at school near halloween time

Sarah

Not only is it one of the sexiest men's birthday's

yes im talking about Jon Walker

its his 23rd b-day so happy birthday man where ever you are!

 

its also my 1 yr Buzznet anniversy, yep its been a year on here one very wild, crazy but great year.

i honestly wouldn't trade it for the world, this place has kept me sane so many times and in touch with so many people

i know if i haven't came on this site i would have never met the wonderful people i know today.

so to all of those friends that i have made im glade i've found you on here

love you all

 

Sarah

close up of my fairy

my pretty 23rd birthday cake...

i had a pretty good day i got to be 19 again haha

we didn't have a 2 and 3 just a 1 and 9 so i had to be 19

but i aint complianing

oh and here is a few pics of me and my lil sissy josie.. she's the only one out of my sibs that came

 

Sarah

ok i just found out that my cousin kyle is in a coma and dieing... hes had cystic fibrous and i think its finally catching up to him...
please someone anyone talk to me.. I'm crying and scared i don't no what to do

ok update: he's been put on a ventalator now.. he's sorta concouis but still unable to do anything

geuss what guys.. MY COUSIN IS OUT OF HIS COMA!!!!!!! he's going to be ok

Sarah

 

hi guys... so i've been gone for a bit
my net went down i honestly dont no why it wouldn't work but it does now..
but anyone that writes a fic that i read could you send me a link to it?
im trying to catch up on them but i dont no who all wrote on their stories so it really help me out

Sarah

ok everybody i just got back from the hospital my cousin Bridget (she has 3 lil girls Hannah 6, Justice 4 and Ava 2) was just in this horrible wreck she might not make it she's in critical condition.. she's broke her back, both legs, her hip, she is bleeding in the brain, and has a ruptured spline.

justice her middle child is worried to death about her mommy she doesn't no what to do

this is the car that she was in she should have died  i have no clue about the driver and honestly right now as mean as it sounds. i couldn't give a flying fuck if he dies he's the one that fuckin had xanx and methadone in him and he's the one that fuckin fell asleep at the god damned wheel.

honestly im so fuckin pissed at the drive and then the mother of the driver had the fuckin NERVE to come up to my aunt and yell at her.

sorry i just had to say this i mean my cousin was just turing her life around she was tryin to get of drugs she was on her way back from drug thing she had to do and this happened and i just found out that she MIGHT have been fuckin PREGNET!

again im sorry but i had to say this i've been holding it in all day and i haven't cried at all today week

Sarah

chapter 1 http://sarah83185.buzznet.com/user/journal/1573491/

chapter 2 http://sarah83185.buzznet.com/user/journal/1629221/love-first-spill-chapter-2/

chapter 3 part 1 http://sarah83185.buzznet.com/user/journal/2255511/

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Chapter 3 part 2: the Way secret

~Recap~
“I’m a… a medium I guess you could say” I tell him looking him dead in the eyes then look down into my lap “I see spirits Mikey not all the time on request either, I’m not crazy its sort of is in my blood. I not only see spirits but sometimes I can hear them or feel what happened to them when they died. I truly don’t know what to classify myself as because on top of all that when I dream sometimes I can see things before they happen but I’m never for sure whether it will happen. I no I sort of knew something happened to my 2 friends Missy and Sam I seen them in one of my dreams.” I finish and up to see his reaction great he’s just staring at me! He probably thinks what everyone else thinks I am a fucking freak.

“your really telling the truth about this arn't’t you Sarah” he ask I nod my head yes “well don’t worry I wont judge you I’m sure it has to be pretty damn freaky to see those ghosts or things before they happen” he says lifting my head with his index finger and smiles at me “ its ok don’t worry your secret is safe with me you can trust me honey” he says then holds his arms out motioning for a hug, which is good cause I could really use one right about now. I move over next to him and he pulls me close and holds me like that just soothing me I couldn't’t help but smile. I just feel so…so safe in his arms I haven’t felt like that in a long time. I look up at him and he’s just looking down at me then he smiles…oh god that smile then out of the blue he cups my face with his hand and leans in and kisses me so gently and lovingly. At first I don’t kiss back then I do and I wrap my arms around his neck it just felt so right he pulls back and just smiles at me.

“So… why did you do that?” I ask smiling

“truthfully…I’ve wanted to do that since I seen you earlier today then I got to know you more and I just couldn't’t hold it back anymore I just had to kiss you sorry if I made you uncomfortable. I don’t usually do that but there was just something different about you that I liked, I feel like I’ve known you for a while even though we just met.” He said still holding me and I totally understand what he means I felt that too. I look at him and he’s looking all shy and sort of scared right now.

“Don’t worry you didn’t make me uncomfortable at all and I know what you mean about the feeling it’s like I’ve known you for years and I just came back and found you. I just feel so comfortable around you and I feel safe in your arms and that’s saying a lot because of my history with men I never really felt like truly safe but I do with you Mikey.” I say smiling.
~Recap~

“So Mikey I told you my big secret… you got any? I say playfully at the mention of secret I feel him tense up almost like he’s hiding something. “Mikey you don’t have to answer it if you don’t want to.” I say then look up at him and he’s staring off into space. I sit up and face him to take a look at him only then do I notice something a little different about his eyes. It almost looks like there’s a red ring around his iris I know they weren’t they’re earlier. That’s a little weird I don’t know what would cause that.

“Um…I want to tell you but I'm afraid you might be afraid of me... because honestly it fucking scares me sometimes.” He says quietly and sort of nervously.

“Hey look at me” he lifts his head up and looks right into my eyes “you didn’t judge so don’t think for a minute that I'm going to judge you… ok?” I smile him hoping that it will comfort him. “I mean it’s not like you are a killer or something” I say jokingly I laugh and then I look at him and he’s just sitting there almost froze lik-

“Actually we-I am kind of a killer…” he says sadly “I’m a v-vampire I drink blood. I mean I won’t hurt anyone but except when I defiantly need to feed.” He says looking at me as I just sit there awe struck.

“Wait so... you’re a real vampire” he just nods his head and I smile a little and lean over and give him a little kiss in which he’s surprised.

“Wait you’re not afraid of me?” he says shocked and amazed I just shake my head no and smile then he just chuckles “oh and gee’s a vamp too.” At this I sort of laugh.

“I had a feeling he was I always knew there was something different about you both but I just couldn’t put my finger on it. Oh and can I ask you something” I say he just nods his head. “What is with the red in your eyes it wasn’t there earlier?” I ask him curiously.

“You see that?!…” he says sort of in a hushed tone at which I just nod “Um well they do that when I'm hungry. The redder and more noticeable the ring is the hungrier I am” He says shyly and slightly embarrassed I believe because I see his cheeks turning slightly pink.

“So what do you feed on like human blood or what?”I ask letting my curiosity getting the best of me; He laughs and smiles.

“Well mainly its animal blood but we still need human blood for the nutrition cause if we don’t have human blood at least every 3 weeks then we will get sick. The more time without any blood the sicker we get its almost like when a human starves themselves the more time without your food the weaker you are and the easier you are to get hurt and sick, well it works the same way with us.” He answers me while looking at me then smiles and this time I see fangs.

“Okay I get it now… oh and you have a nice set of fangs” I say giggling

“well if I didn’t know better Ms. Smarty pants I’d say you were one of us with those little fangs you have.” he says I blush… I sort of do have little fangs I guess you could say. My canines are longer than the normal persons, plus I'm a total night person I love the whole idea of nightfall to me its just beautiful.

“Well then you might want to watch your neck I might just bite it” I say jokingly

He smirks and raises his eyebrow “Is that a promise Sarah?”

“I don’t know Mikey you’ll just have to find out now wont you” I smile mischievously.

“Aww your no fun.” He says and pouts and crosses his arms like a little boy at this I can’t help but to laugh at which makes him pout more. He falls back on to the bed and pulls me down with him by my arms. I ended up failing on his chest we just lay they with his arms around my waist and my head over his heart. We must’ve fallen asleep cause next thing we know is we’re being tackled by to people. I open my eyes and come face to face with Lyn-z and gee is on Mikey; Lyn-z sits up with one leg on either side of my hip

“So me and Gerard got hungry and we got to thinking that maybe we could go to a restaurant. So I figured we should ask you two to come with… we knocked but no one answered then when we opened the door we found out why and may I add you to looked absolutely adorable!” I burst out laughing at this situation and at the way Lyn-z is talking in a southern accent “but the whole tackling you in your sleep was all gee’s idea so if you hit anyone hit him” me and Mikey look at each other and then smack gee on the back of the head one after another.

“Hey! What the fuck was that for?!” gee yells while rubbing the back of his head.

"That was for you thinking it was fun to tackle me and my girlfriend dumbass!" Mikey says then freezes after he notices he's called me his girlfriend; while I'm blushing crazily.

"So you two are going out now?!" Lyn-z says smiling and looking at Gee then looking back at us. I look at Gee scared that he might be pissed or something but instead he has a HUGE smile on his face one of the biggest I've seen at which I start laughing at cause he just looks ridiculous almost like a mad man. Lyn-z's looking at me and Mikey for our answer to her question.

"Umm... I don't know I guess he hasn't asked me yet." I say biting my lip as Lyn-z and Gee get off us so we can sit up.

"Well you can be if you want to Sarah cause i would love to have you as my girlfriend... that is if you can put up with everything and handle the secret." Mikey says rushed and nervous looking at me and not at Gee by now me and him are sitting up. I look at Gee just in time to see his happiness fade into total shock and anger.

"Micheal you did NOT tell her did you?!" Gee says harshly and gibing a death glare at Mikey, honestly he looks scared and sort of mad.

"Look Gerard your secret is safe I swear I wont tell anyone about what you are and if I do..." I bite my lip thinking then come up with the end of the bargain "you can drink me dry?" I say looking him dead straight in the eyes dead serious and he looks amazed as i put my hand out for him to shake. He smirks at me and shakes my hand firmly leaving a stunned Mikey and Lyn-z.

"Gee! you will NOT fucking bi-" Mikey yells but is cut off by Gerard.

"Chill Mikes if she's really willing to put her life on the line like that she must be a very trust worthy and honest person. Besides I would never bite you Sarah" he says as he turns to me "your too sweet for my taste and you're dating my bro so its just gross cause you have all his germs and shit." he just screws up his face at which i laugh at cause he looks like a little boy seeing his parents kissing soon he turns serious again "BUT if you hurt him Sarah you better be sleeping with your eyes open cause I will kill you then i will snap your pathetic little neck like a fucking twig under my foot do your fucking understand me!" he tells me inches from my face baring his fangs.

"I understand Gerard and if I do hurt him please do feel to fucking torture me if you want cause I'd fucking kill myself if I would ever hurt your brother." i tell him then i walk over to Mikey and he holds out his hand and i take it.

"ok so let me get this straight you to are going out?" Lyn-z says at which we both nod at "and my husband has gone insane." she says laughing we nod and well all laugh at even gee then he catches on, and tackles Lyn-z to the ground and starts tickling her.

"Hey babe lets go downstairs" he says i nod "but you have to let me give you a Mikey-back ride i look at him like he's crazy and crack up laughing then he looks at me serious and turns around "just get on my back before i lock you in her with gee and Lyn-z.. i climb on his back and he walks out of the room and down the hallway and descends the stairs all the while I'm holding onto him for dear life hoping I'm not hurting him and that he don't drop me. Then he sits me on the sofa and sits on me i just wrap my arms around him and laugh.

"aren't you suppose to be doing this with me on your lap and you holding onto me?" i laugh and he looks at me and turns around and straddles me then kisses me so sweetly yet with so much passion more passion than i have ever felt in a kiss. i hook my arms around his neck and plays with his hair with my right hand and i lay my left hand on his cheek and kiss back nibbling on his lips. i can tell he likes that cause he's smiling into the kiss and i smile back then he pecks my lips and pulls back with a smile on his face and rest his forehead on mine. I kiss his nose and he chuckles.

"I didn't know you where a biter" he said and smirks "but then again with your little fangs i shouldn't be surprised."

"Well i told you to stick around and you would find out if you'd be bite by me and you just did well a lil anyway i didn't just want to bit your neck out of know where that woul-" i say but Mikey interrupts

"now i would not have minded that one bit Sarah" he says and chuckles and then gets off me and lays down on the sofa. did i mention the thing is HUGE! he then beckons me to lay next to me and i lay next to him i snuggle up to him and he wraps his arms around my waist protectively i lay my head on his chest over his heart.

 

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sorry it took so long for me to post a new chapter of this but MS word wouldn't let me take and post it so i had to like retype it on another progam and switch between windoes to make sure im writing it right.

i hope you all enjoy it

Sarah

You are:
[ ] under 5'2
[x ] 5'2 -5'6"
[ ] 5'7'' more medium then short
[ ] in between 5'7" - 6'0"
[ ] tall

[ ] naturally blonde
[ ] redhead
[ ] brunette
[x ] dirty blonde/brownish
[ ] black
[ ] dark brown

[ ] blue-eyed
[ ] brown-eyed
[ ] green-eyed
[x ] my eyes are weird and they change
[ ] hazel eyed
[ ] gold/gray-eyed
[ ] silver/gray- eyed
[ ] black eyed
[ ]glasses---im suppose to have them anyways dont have the money for them
[ ] contacts
[ ] LASIK, PRK or RK
[ ] Perfect vision

[ ] short hair
[x ] medium
[ ] long hair
[ ] long CRAZY BUSHY TAKE OVER THE WORLD MONSTER HAIR

Your nationality includes...
[ ] barbadian
[ ] chinese
[ ] indian
[ ] taiwanese
[ ] japanese
[ ] hispanic
[ ] nicoya
[ ] puerto rican
[ ] chicana-i dont like this word
[ ] italian
[ ] scottish
[ ] filipino
[ ] armenian
[ ] dutch
[ ] french
[ ] german
[ ] irish
[ ] greek
[ ] portuguese
[ ] polish
[ ] english
[ ] korean
[ ] jamacian
[ ] canadian
[ ] lithuanian
[x ] native american---blackfoot

[ ] russian
[ ] swedish
[ ] african
[ ] peruvian
[ ] hungarian
[ ] thai
[ ] czech-slovakian
[ ] you aren't sure
[ ] romanian
[ ] finnish
[ ] egyptian
[ ] welsh
[ ] norweigian
[ ] croatian
[ ] austrian
[ ] persian
[ ] spanish

[ ] other

Your favorite color(s) are?
[x ] red
[ ] khaki
[ ] pink
[ ] yellow
[x ] black
[ ] green
[ ] blue
[ ] white
[ ] silver
[ ] purple
[ ] brown
[ ] orange
[ ] clear

Some sports/physical things you have done at least once in life
[ ] soccer
[ ] cheerleading
[x ] dancing--at dances and in my room if that counts
[ ] lacrosse
[ ] field hockey
[ ] hockey
[ ] football
[ ] softball

[ ] ice skating
[ ] wrestling
[ ] gymnastics
[ ] track/cross country
[x ] basketball
[ ] baseball
[ ] golf
[ ] hiking
[ ] kayaking
[ ] canoing
[x ] camping
[x ] horseback riding
[ ] tennis
[x ] volleyball
[ ] martial arts
[ ] rugby
[x ] frisbee
[ ] surfing
[ ] motocross
[ ] bmx
[ ] wakeboarding
[ ] snowboarding
[ ] skiing
[ ] waterskiiing

Mark your confessions:

[ ] I Talk A LOT when I get really nervous.
[x ] I am really ticklish.
[x ] I'm afraid of the dark. (sometimes)
[ ] I can't sleep in a room if the door is open
[ ] I can't sleep in a room if the door is closed
[ ] I am homosexual.
[x ] I believe in true love.
[ ] I've ran away from home
[ ] I listen to political music---someone please explain what this is...bcuz it sounds intersting
[ ] I collect comic books
[ ] I shut others out when I'm sad.
[ ] I've stayed out all night.
[x ] I open up to others easily.
[ ] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[ ] I watch the news
[x ] I love Disney movies.
[ ] I am a sucker for green eyes.
[ ] I am a sucker for brown eyes.
[x ] I am a sucker for blue eyes
[ ] I dont kill bugs
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[x ] I've slipped and fell in public. Oh yeah all the time! especially in school
[ ] I've slipped out a "lol" in a real conversation
[x ] I love Spam---the kind you eat : p
[x ] I bake well.
[ ] I have worn pajamas to class.
[x ] I want a better job ----Actually i just want one lol
[x ] Talked on a phone for 6+ hours.
[ ] I love Dr. Phil.
[x ] I like multiple people
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.---My brain hurts when i try to read it
[x ] I am self-conscious.
[x ] I love to laugh.
[x ] I have tried alcohol.-- and may i say i HATE that shit! yuck!
[ ] I drink alcohol on a regular basis.
[ ] I have tried a cigarette.
[ ] I have smoked a pack in one day.
[ ] I loved Lord of the Flies.
[x ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[ ] I have a lot of scars.
[x ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x ] I like chocolate.
[ ] I bite my nails.
[x ] I am not comfortable with being me. Sometimes for the most part i like me
[x ] I play computer games when I'm bored.
[ ] Gotten lost in the city.
[x ] Thought of suicide before.---I hate admiting it.
[ ] Seen a shooting star.
[ ] Gone out in public in my pajamas
[ ] Hugged a stranger.
[ ] Kissed a stranger.
[ ] Been in a fist fight.
[ ] Laughed and had some type of beverage come out of my nose
[ ] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[ ] Made out in an elevator
[x ] Kicked a guy where it hurts on purpose---that would be cruel! 
[ ] Been skydiving.
[ ] Been bungee jumping.
[ ] Gotten stitches
[ ] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
[x ] Bitten someone-- bite my bro years ago
[ ] Been to Niagara Falls.
[x ] Gotten the chicken pox.
[x ] Crashed into a car---been in a car crash but never was the driver
[ ] Been to Germany.
[ ] Been to South America.
[ ] Ridden in a taxi.
[ ] Been fired.
[ x] Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.---Story of my life much??
[ ] Stole something from your job.
[x ] Gone on a blind date
[x ] Had a crush on a teacher/coach.----omg my choir director! this is the only year i've ever had a crush on my teacher
[ ] Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] Been to Europe
[ ] Slept with a co-worker, and/or employee.
[x ] Saw someone/something dying.
[ ] have a list of people you want to kill.
[ ] Ridden in a car over 400 miles in one day---how far is Dallas Tx from Chicago Il?
[ ] Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
[ ] Thrown up in a bar
[ ] Eaten sushi
[x ] Cried in public.
[ ] Walked purposely into traffic with your eyes closed.
[x ] Liked someone even though you knew you shouldn't have.
[x ] Thought of someone a lot lately.
[ ] Hate the world.

i got this from vero

Kurt Cobains remains reported stolen.

Courtney Love is said to be "suicidal" after Kurt Cobains remains, that were in a pink teddy bear shaped bag along with a lock of his hair, were stolen from her Los Angeles home. Reports say that Love was horrified a couple of weeks ago when she discovered that her late husbands remains were stolen along with thousands of pounds of clothes and jewels. Courtney has said the following statements about the situation that will leave millions of Kurt and Nirvana fans disgusted:

"I can't believe anyone would take Kurt's ashes from me."

"I find it disgusting and right now I'm suicidal."

"If I don't get them back I don't know what I'll do."

Kurt Cobain, Dave Grohl and Krist Novoselic mesmerized the music world in the 90s with hits like In Bloom and Smells Like Teen Spirit.

Nirvana has sold over 62 million albums worldwide. The classic album Nevermind has sold more than 10 million copies by itself, the classic album is also considered one of the greatest albums ever made.

Tragedy stuck in 1994 when Cobain killed himself, while high on heroin, with a shotgun. Cobain was cremated and some of his ashes we're scattered in a Buddhist temple in New York, Others were scattered near his home in Washington in the Wishkah River. The rest of Cobains ashes remained with Courtney, until just recently.

Love also stated, "They were all I had left of my husband. I used to take them everywhere with me just so I could feel Kurt was still with me. Now it feels like I have lost him all over again."

 

i found this on Mibba.com credit to deathxbatxbow who posted it

i geuss i just have to get this off my chest..

but my gramps has been in the hospital for a week now and he's gotten worse..

at first he was just on 2nd floor and being stubborn but now he's in ICU on the 3rd floor

he's going down hill,  he's got to much carbon monoxcide and not enough oxygen and he has septus and gull stones... he's talkin out of his head plus they have him restrained

if he doesn't where his cpap machine to give him oxygen then he'll be put on a ventalator

i just dont no what to do... i have a feeling that he wont pull through this

he's telling Joseph my sisters husband to take care of my sis and Paul to take care of mom and josie, he told me to take care of Mamaw

 

Sarah

TO ANYONE WHO LIVES IN VIRGINIA AND KNOWS ANYONE THAT LIVES IN RICHMOND... PLEASE HELP ME N MY FRIENDS BRING HER HOME... COULD YOU PLEASE HELP US FIND VICKY KESSLER. SHE WALKED OUT OF SCHOOL FRIDAY MAY 16, 2008 AT 11:30 AM WITH A FRIEND AND HAS'NT BEEN SEEN OR HEARD FROM SINCE. LAST THAT WAS HEARD WAS THAT SHE WAS HEADING TO RICHMOND, VIRGINIA WITH HER FRIEND AND TWO AFRICAN AMERICAN GUYS IN THEIR 30'S. SHE IS 5'3 AND 196 LBS. SHE HAS BLACK HAIR AND BLUE EYES. D.O.B. SEPTEMBER 6, 1993, SHE IS 14 YEARS OLD. IF YOU SEE HER OR NO OF HER WHERABOUTS PLEASE CALL THE ROANOKE CITY POLICE DEPARTMENT OR HER MOTHER 793-5775 OR HER FATHER 793-8264 PLEASE DONT IGNORE AND HELP BRING VICKY HOME. THANK YOU

please help us find her

 

sarah

State police warning for online: Please read this 'very carefully'..then send it out to all the people online that you know. Something like this is nothing to be taken casually ; this is something you DO want to pay attention to. If a person with the screen-name of Rockhard abs or goes by his name Jason Stallings contacts you, do not reply. DO NOT talk to this person; do not answer any of his instant messages or e-mail . He has the ability to track your home address. Whoever this person may be, he is a suspect for murder in the death of (3) women (so far) contacted through the Internet. He is a suspect in a shooting and is known for raping and beating young women. He is located in the MID-MICHIGAN area.

 

this is not a joke please be on alert

 

Sarah

ok vicki here im sorry i didn't mean to hurt you with the journals i wrote earlier

please just talk to me...

you no i would do anything for you

just talk to me and forgive me please vicks

 

Sarah

Did you know that it's Beautiful Women Month?

Well, it is and that means you and me. I'm supposed to send this to FIVE (or more) BEAUTIFUL WOMEN, and you are one of them!!!

Facts On Figures :

There are 3 billion women who don't look like super models ?

And only eight who do.

 
Did you know Marilyn Monroe wore a size 14?

If Barbie was a real woman, she'd have to walk on all FOURS due to her proportions!

The average woman weighs 144 pounds, and wears between a size 12-14.

One out of every 4 college-aged women has an eating disorder.

The Models in the magazines are AIRBRUSHED!!! - NOT Perfect!!

A psychological study in 1995 found that 3 minutes spent lo oking at a Fashion Magazine caused 70% of women to feel depressed , guilty and SHAMEFUL!

Models 20 years ago weighed 8% Less than the average Woman.
Today they weigh 23% less......

~*~ Beauty of a Woman ~*~
The beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears,
The figure she carries, or the way she combs her hair.
The beauty of a woman must be seen from her eyes,
Because that is the doorway to her heart,
The place where love resides.
The beauty of a woman is not in a facial mole,
But true beauty in a woman is reflected in her soul.
It is the caring that she lovingly gives,
The passion that she shows.
The beauty of a woman
With time, only grows..

The Images of A Mom

  4 YEARS OF AGE Y My Mommy can do anything!
  8 YEARS OF AGE Y My Mom knows a lot! A whole lot!
12 YEARS OF AGE Y My Mother doesn't really know quite everything.
14 YEARS OF AGE Y Naturally, Mother doesn't know that, either!
16 YEARS OF AGE Y Mother? She's hopelessly old-fashioned.
18 YEARS OF AGE Y That old woman? She's way out of date!
25 YEARS OF AGE Y Well, she might know a little bit about it.
35 YEARS OF AGE Y Before we decide, let's get Mom's opinion.
45 YEARS OF AGE Y Wonder what Mom would have thought about it?
65 YEARS OF AGE Y Wish I could talk it over with Mom...

I was tagged by Mcrlover101

here they are in no particular order
1. Sugar We’re Goin Down- Fall Out Boy
2. Pressure- Paramore
3. Helena -My Chemical Romance
4. Guilty Pleasure- Cobra Starship
5. I’m so Sick- Flyleaf

I tag: elvisanddepplover, hollow1005, lynsregretsromance, killerflower, deathbatlover

hey guys i just got back from the dinner. we had i think 115 people show up and i had to serve 2 tables (10- 11 people) it wasn't that bad i had nice funny people and no dean! :D

all the girls in the senior and freshman class had to serve which gave us about 9 people and we all had to wear butterfly clips in our hair i got me a red one so it would go with my hair :D

we got so many compliments on the food and service they said it was the best out of all the dinners they've had!!!

us seniors was the leaders of the whole sha bang barb and pegg just watched over us and we ordered the freshmen around like gave them certin jobs

oh and me and my friend stef did a wine themed display and we got so many compliments

ill post photos of this day and our party and my graduation when i get them done!

 

Sarah

So tommarow is my "final" for my cullinary class, and honestly im fucking petrified!

i could handle a written test probly but no we have to cook the advisory dinner for the Dean of my college and staff members!

in total there will be about 116 to 125 people there and i truley dont want to be a server at all cause im fucking clumbsy as hell and i no i will drop or knock something over.

however today i was really proud of the work me and my friend stefanie did we had to decorate the bulliten board with ivy and lights so we could cover up our mistakes we made with our HUGE poster for the board. i love how it looks its really pretty as soon as i get pics im defintly going to post them.

im just scared to death that im going to fuck up the dinner some how tommarow last year i was fine when we did it, but then again it wasn't out final either.

well i geuss i just needed to get that off my chest thanks for listening oh and for those who has read my fic "Love at first Spill..." im currentlly working on the second half of chapter 3 it shouldn't be much later before i post again

 

love ya,

Sarah

ok i no its been a LONG time since i posted last but i've been busy with my last year of college and some family things happened praticly all hell broke lose... i hope you all still read it and there will be more to come i promise you..just leave me some comments on how its comming.

Sarah

Love at first spill…

Chapter 3 part 1: the Way secret

 

~Recap~

“Nice to meet you…. Would you like something to drink?” he asked nicely and I notice that Mikey wasn’t beside me anymore I shook my head no but asked if I could heat my coco up he smiled sweetly and nodded his head and lead me to the kitchen and he heated my coca up

 

“Did you notice where Mikey went gee…I mean Gerard” I said

 

“Um... he took some things upstairs and you can call me gee I don’t mind.” He said then I seen Mikey walk in and leans against the counter next to me and gee “oh shit I forgot your coco!” gee says and runs and grabs it out of the microwave then sits it down beside me.

 

“Gee is Lyn-z home yet?” Mikey asks leaning in closer to me

 

“Yeah I’m here” Lyn-z says sleepily and walks up to gee and gives him a kiss and lays her head on his chest. “I’m sorry I didn’t know we had a guest… I'm Lyn-z nice to meet you sweetie” she said giving me a hug  then returns to Gerard and he slips his arm around her waist I look at her smiling and she’s was wearing a white shirt that had a airbrushed unicorn with Gerard airbrushed underneath and she had on a pair of skinny jeans. Her hair was down and she had lil eyeliner on and that’s it.

~End of recap~

 

 

“Hey, Sarah let me show you where your room is” he said taking my hand.

 

“Sure I’m assuming that’s where you took off earlier when you just left me hangin with you bro? Not that I didn’t mind hangin with Gee” I said grabbing my coco before he dragged me up the stairs he just looked at me and laughed going up the stairs.

 

“well you caught me again” he laughed “yea I took your things up to what will be your room and put everything up for you I hope you didn’t mind…well I didn’t touch your clothes but everything else I put up for you” he said as he led me down the hallway to a room he opened the door to it.

 

 I stepped in to the room it had blood red walls with black trim. The room had hardwood cherry floors which I thought was gorgeous! Then I looked and seen a Queen sized antiqued silver canopy bed with white sheets and bedding that had some type of swirl black pattern on it. There was this black net there was draped around the post that was tied back at this moment. Near the head of the bed it had black satin pillows with a blood red trim around the outside. I stood there and looked at it awe struck I mean how did I get this bedroom it’s like my dream room! Then I noticed a cherry wood wardrobe with antiqued silver handles and beside it was a vanity mirror to match in which Mikey had set the make-up and hair brush I had brought with me out on the top then I looked through the drawers and found my hair things in it.

 

“So do you like the room? You’ve been pretty quite since you have walked in here” he asked shyly and nervously. I turn to face him and hug him.

 

“I love this room it’s my dream room come to life! It has my fave colors and everything.” He chuckles then hugs me back.

 

“I’m glad you like it I thought you hated it there for a while” he says then releases me slowly from the hug reluctantly and helps me put up my clothes or what I had which wasn’t many. “So how long are you going to be staying down here? Is it just for the concert or longer maybe? He asked looking me in the eyes with a smile, I look into his beautiful eyes and I see is that a glimmer of hope? My eyes must be playing tricks on me because why would he hope that I stay longer?

 

“I had rented the place you had sat up for me for a few more days because I planned on staying down here for about a week. To check everything out because I have actually really wanted to come down here and see this place for a very long time” I said smiling he just shakes head and latches my suitcase and sits it in the back of my wardrobe. This is going to be a new experience I have my own room for once I think smiling even bigger.

 

“Now why in the world would you want to come down to this dull place?” he says while making himself comfortable on my bed. Well at least the boy took his shoes off, he smiles and motions for me to sit down to him.

 

I laugh “Well I don’t really know why I mean my town is small and boring but I just wanted a change of scenery for a bit to get away from all of the drama and shit in Russell. Plus My Chemical Romance originated from here dummy.” I say playfully shoving his shoulder and he laughs. “So I figured I could go check out some of the old places they would play at before they got bigger” I say smiling and looking at him.

 

“Well I could show you some of our old places we use to play and some of the spots we do secret shows just for the crowd here some of our old stomping grounds” he says then laughs we sit there talking for what feels like hours. Some how we end up doing truth or dare god only knows how we started this god only knows.

 

“Okay my turn… um what’s one of your secrets that hardly anyone knows?” Mikey asks… I don’t know whether I should him my big secret or not he sees me debating on what to say “forget it Sarah you don’t have to answer that one I’ll ask a different one.” He says

 

“No its okay I was just thinking about what your reaction would be and whether you would think I was crazy or not...” I say biting my lip out of habit I do that when I’m nervous or thinking

 

“no its ok you don’t have to answer it if it’s to uncomfortable for you” he says reassuringly I take a deep breath and look at him I think I can trust him I mean I feel like I’ve known him for almost my entire life its like we’ve been best friends for years or something

 

“I’m a… a medium I guess you could say” I tell him looking him dead in the eyes then look down into my lap “I see spirits Mikey not all the time on request either, I’m not crazy its sort of is in my blood. I not only see spirits but sometimes I can hear them or feel what happened to them when they died. I truly don’t know what to classify myself as because on top of all that when I dream sometimes I can see things before they happen but I’m never for sure whether it will happen. I no I sort of knew something happened to my 2 friends Missy and Sam I seen them in one of my dreams.” I finish and up to see his reaction great he’s just staring at me! He probly thinks what everyone else thinks I am a fucking freak.

 

“your really telling the truth about this aren’t you Sarah” he ask I nod my head yes “well don’t worry I wont judge you I’m sure it has to be pretty damn freaky to see those ghosts or things before they happen” he says lifting my head with his index finger and smiles at me “ its ok don’t worry your secret is safe with me you can trust me honey” he says then holds his arms out motioning for a hug, which is good cause I could really use one right about now. I move over next to him and he pulls me close and holds me like that just soothing me I couldn’t help but smile. I just feel so…so safe in his arms I haven’t felt like that in a long time. I look up at him and he’s just looking down at me then he smiles…oh god that smile then out of the blue he cups my face with his hand and leans in and kisses me so gently and lovingly. At first I don’t kiss back then I do and I wrap my arms around his neck it just felt so right he pulls back and just smiles at me.

 

“So… why did you do that?” I ask smiling

 

“truthfully…I’ve wanted to do that since I seen you earlier today then I got to know you more and I just couldn’t hold it back anymore I just had to kiss you sorry if I made you uncomfortable. I don’t usually do that but there was just something different about you that I liked, I feel like I’ve known you for a while even though we just met.” He said still holding me and I totally understand what he means I felt that too. I look at him and he’s looking all shy and sort of scared right now.

 

“Don’t worry you didn’t make me uncomfortable at all and I know what you mean about the feeling it’s like I